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Love as of Late
by Caitlin SchwartzI'm scared
Of never finding love
But I'm terrified
To find love
I'm worried that if he gives me his love
He'll need love back
And I won't know how to give it
I'm concerned that once I know love
I will never want to know life without it
What if I mess up?
What if I lose it?
What if my love isn't good enough?
What if he can find better love
elsewhere?
So he leaves
and
I am without love
once again.
I've convinced myself
That I don't need love.
Or romance
Or acts of chivalry.
I'm simple.
Those are things of excess...
But my resolve is weakening.
I can't shut myself off anymore.
Past scars will heal
eventually.
They may never disappear totally,
But I think that's
okay.
They serve as reminders that
I deserve love.
And when I find it,
I won't stay
Hidden in the shadows.
I will run into the light
And jump,
Leap,
Dive
Into the unknown. 06/19/2014 Posted on 06/19/2014
Copyright © 2025 Caitlin Schwartz
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Rob Littler on 06/20/14 at 12:40 AM Damn you need a hug, eh? Love yourself, deeply, and love will come to you, be light that attracts light, be a beacon, and love will be what you are, not given or received, only known...I love you already. |
| Posted by John Harder on 06/20/14 at 11:58 PM I think, "it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all" is fitting in this situation. All of our encounters with love and relationships help form a more clear understanding of ourselves. The good and the bad are all a learning experience, and help us better understand what we are truly looking for when it comes to love. You capture the fear and uncertainty perfectly here. |
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