looking beyond the inner sighs, I believed
so desperately,
feeling that now I, who beheld this peace
was whole again
with one who understood,
someone like me ...

searching your smile, I breathed confidence
warming around this strength of conviction,
the words we exchanged confirmed
I could fly on the eve of this new realization,
and I so wanted to believe
to even conceive
anything beside disbelief

now that I reflect
along with those other ridiculous rationalizations
was I a fool to even think
I could ever love you?
or that you even moved closer to loving me
from this side of never will be,
gazing across our great divide
pondering no possibilities
dying inside this abject reality ...

09/01/2008

Posted on 09/02/2008
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