incensed, I tell you
more like delirious with rage
at this mouse-like behavior I see,
in me!
insidious torment
relentless, it rides
as I wait for nothing it seems
day after day ...

good little girl, I am
always helpful, resourceful
pleasant with ease
look at this model of composure I've become
I'm disgusted at less...

though it stops not the hunger
to devour,
words on a page do nothing
tears in my coffee disappear
face in my pillow, wanting
wanting
always wanting
wanting for what, exactly?

how long has it been
how much longer until
I finally realize
the truth
or err of my ways,
lost in a crowd of misinformation
stumbling and staggering for answers to come
the answer has begged to be found
while the question remains within ...

12/28/2007

Posted on 12/29/2007
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