its been a year I've known you
maybe a little longer
a year with you here in my mind,
together we've traveled to some faraway places
tasted those waters sweet
shared during erotic sighings...

and though I've never kissed your lips,
never held your hand in person, its true
my feelings for you are deeply profound
and I can't stop myself from wanting to
love you forever, how could I not?

you have reached deep inside my soul
I am all at once so captivated,
yet on the other hand, so nervous and shy
why?
I don't know, exactly
for you have shown me something I've always dreamed of
always longed for and believed
our reality,
its that part that scares me
this thing called the real world
I get filled with anxiety and angst
uncertain if you'd be the same way in person
not sure you'd accept me
me with my flaws,
my obsession with perfection
it's silly I know,
as you've shown yourself loyal
the problem is me and my fragmented self,
safer to keep you here in my mind
close to my heart
or so I tell myself...

so I'd like to believe...

12/25/2006

Posted on 12/26/2006
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