If I were to fall in love
with you again
I'd wait until the blade
was against my wrist
held tight againt
a
beating vein.

You broke my heart
you ground it
inbetween your teeth
mixing fine powder
with you stale saliva
that still tasted like him.

I never kissed you
I never knew the distance between your lips
and mine.
But i knew it was great.

I knew you were tragic.
I knew you were young
But my heavy tongue couldn't tell you the truth
and my heavy soul couldn't hold your breath
because mine was alreay gone
and the sun is unforgiving like that.
No one would forgive my silence
and i could do all but forget you
and i could do all but forgive you
or myself.

I'll sleep tonight
in a bowl of ketchup
and let the red vegetable
soak away your scent
seep into my mind
and brush you away with red strokes.

You stopped twice
and I forgave you
but I don't think I could forgive
your trespasses
because i'm nothing like Jesus
and i lost my faith
along with my favorite pair of shoes
and I had more hope in you than
in an ethereal God.

You failed me.

I failed you.

You failed me
like unanswered prayers.
And all I wanted was to see you smile
because I heard you crying too many times.
Jesus died young and lonely.
Maybe he did show us eternity.

11/24/2006

Posted on 11/24/2006
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