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Love So Hard it Hurts
by S.J. TylerWhen I think about you
My body feels rigid
Full of so much pain
That I want to tear myself apart
To let it out
Youve become my entire world
And when youre not here
I have nothing
And I think about how great it was
Just a few hours ago
When I was in your arms
And I felt so full of all that is perfect,
All that you give me
And now when I think of that happiness
That pure, expansive happiness
My heart turns so cold
And my chest tightens
With a grief felt throughout
Because you are not here now
And you cannot be here all the time
Instead of filling me with the light
I shine with when you hold me
Now Im burning in a roasting darkness
just because you had to stop
And knowing that that happiness
Cant touch me now,
That its so far away
And that it keeps getting farther
Hurts me more than never having been happy
And I wonder,
Is it worth it to have you at all,
When your leaving cuts a void
That feels bitterer than hatred
And leaves me crying so hard
That I can no longer breathe or see
That you are not still here?
And then I hate myself even more
For not being able to hold onto the joy
For any moment longer than it is occurring
Because the same memory
That was bliss as a present
Becomes a spurning ax to my heart
As a past
05/20/2005 Author's Note: needs a better title, if anyone has suggestions
Posted on 05/20/2005
Copyright © 2025 S.J. Tyler
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Ashok Sharda on 05/22/05 at 03:16 AM Well, if one is loved and feels loved, one should feel filled with those beautiful vibrations, waiting for those moments of love on the physical plane.The hurt here expresses love. |
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