Anguish dwelling deep inside
All these fears I just can’t hide.
Wondering what I’m supposed to be
and asking why I can’t really see.
I ask for love but I end up with hate..
and this is the true reason I disassociate.
I think it’s all real but reality tells me no
since I’ve always herd, love is something you grow.
Walking barefoot in this land of shattered dreams
with my life falling apart at the seems.
Decide what to do and who’s heart to break
since after this, it all just seems too fake.
I’ve broken my heart a thousand times
with my alcoholic brew and sliced limes.
Drink to help me deal with the loss
and to see how love has no greater cost.
I just try to fool myself again
and tell myself love isn’t something you win.

10/16/1999

Posted on 12/16/2003
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