A rusty nail sunk deep in my heart.
A pain that's been there lingering from the start.
Betrayal everywhere I look.
Misconceptions and things mistook.
A pain that began a long time ago.
A bruised and bleeding ego.
A rage in my father that burns his eyes
and everyday holds a new painful surprise.
Everyday a new cold word to be said
and each day he makes me wish I was dead.
Everywhere I turn I run into a wall.
Stumbling and falling down this dark hall.
A hate that makes me want to cause pain
for each day I want to hurt him again.
All the lies he says burn my soul.
Sadly, I think about how to take control.
He just hates me for his reasons unknown
I'm stunned when his hatred is fully shown.
Suicide creeps into my subconscious thoughts
because of all the newfound hatred I've got.
For I can never say I truly hate him
but the outlook for the relationship looks grim.
No matter what I say I'm always wrong
for each day it's the same old song.
You hate me for who I literally am
and think that I'm always on the scam.
Nothing has ever really changed
and your story gets rearranged.
You hate me so to lie.
All I want to do anymore is curl up and die.
I'm tired of the hate flowing like wine
but it'll be too late before you see the sign.
I'll be gone and you'll be happy and alone
for my suicide wish will never be shown.
Until the day when I breathe no more
All curled up and livid on the floor.
for I'll be gone and you'll be happy and alone
for my suicide wish will never be shown
Until the day when I breathe no more.
for I'm tired of being your whipping whore.
for never did anything justifiably wrong
but that won't change your hateful song.
You've just been fucking with my mind
So fuck you, I'm leaving you behind...

06/10/1998

Posted on 12/16/2003
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