A pain so clear, a pain so true...
a pain so obvious all because of you...
I thought you were gone in a swirl of haze...
I thought you were gone for the rest of my days...
This was my dream, never to see you there...
to get you out of my tangled hair....
To never hear from you, or see your face....
to never think of you as life's disgrace..
You were gone for a while, but now your back...
and your attitude is still just as slack...
You tried to hurt me with all of your lies...
and used friendship as your disguise...
I believed you from my heart out of trust and care...
but then I discovered your game and how unfair...
Unfair to me, unfair to the world...
but upon me lies your hurled...
You said you were queen but they were just white lies...
but I played along and covered my eyes...
I never thought of destroying your world...
but until I saw the underneath girl...
A girl to afraid of someone being close...
afraid of the pain and this just shows...
To me your the same, and you still want to be real...
but I know you and I know how you feel...
You cant be yourself and you cant believe...
all the lies you told yourself, never to achieve...
I see you now, as I saw you before...
as the person you are, a lying little bore...
I don't hate you as much as I once really did...
but I've looked inside and saw where you hid...
You hide in my anger and hide in the dark spots in my soul...
you wait for me to snap and lose all my control...
You smile in pride as you sit back and watch...
from far away this attack did you launch...
The result was stuttering in my life...
you made me see the girl who wanted to be my wife...
You made me see her true and open as she was...
you made me see her true face and all because...
You lied to me so many times, she saw it as freedom...
from her happy and nice disguise....
So she followed on your track of lies and pain...
and then you destroyed my life, all in vain...
So the next time you stare into your crystal ball...
you will feel my rage duly to you call...
For you know I'm out here still waiting around...
never letting you know, never making a sound...
Hoping one day, you will truly forget...
of all the lies you told that made me upset...
So then maybe you will be gone off this world...
and I wont be with that horrible girl...
In a way, I probably should thank you...
but just think, I'll still remember who...

06/08/1994