The surreal mess of these last months have astounded me.
I’ve never thought I would betray a friendship for sex
much less with someone who is a non sweets type
when it comes to sexual chocolate...
No warning, just a tornado of passion...
No signs of impending molestation
until it’s final manifestation...
Now looking back in shock, what happened?
How did this go that path?
How can I even comprehend the math?
Do we not even mention something like this?
Do I just try and forget that lesbian kiss?
do I ask the question or just ignore the fact
and look around and see what I lack..
A friend to lover back to friend
so just when will this madness end?
My family falling apart while my heart begs
looking for the kind and getting regs...
No more happy sunshine happiness
since that was lost with the ignorance of bliss.
Now just surreal surroundings and the twilight zone
and breathing people on the other end of the phone..
The days and ages of the past come to haunt
and me to live my life for the here and now...

01/30/2000

Posted on 12/16/2003
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