Looking back and wondering why
The dripping water from my eye
the sin I committed on my heart
the sin that I loved from the start.
the lost time that shall never return
the feeling in my heart that continues to burn.
I loved you once, now I just don’t know
and this hurt fades to damn slow.
I just want to share with you my conclusion
that maybe we were just an illusion.
You don’t have time for me, and I have none for you
and dealing with all the shit we have to go through...
I still long for what I once had so close to home
now I’m stuck here without you and all alone.
I thought I was the chosen one, but I was wrong
and to think that I fooled myself all along.
I thought that love lasted forever not just a day
and looking back, I don’t believe there was a right thing to say.
I ask myself why must I always do this to you and me
and to think of love just in my fading memories.
Looking back on all the women I’ve seduced
and now how lowly I’ve been reduced,
How once I was yours and yours alone
not stuck here sobbing on this phone...
So what do I do? I just turn around and sin
and tell myself that it’ll never happen again.

10/24/1999

Posted on 12/16/2003
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