Seems I only talked to God when I need him...
Seems I never asked to forgive my sin..
Seemed he never listened to anything I said..
and I had my own opinions in my head...

I never thought I would ask for help...
I never thought I would complain the hand dealt..
I never counted on a broken heart and sleepless nights
and the brisk lonely dawns and the nights fading lights..

The stars mocking me in my desperate situation..
with the shooting stars in static animation..
the heavens pondering my fate..
hoping that its just not too late..

I walked down to the waters edge..
where the ocean and the lands ledge..
I got on my knee's and I begged for what I have..
and the ocean mist covered me like a healing salve..
I felt the white water wash me through me to the bone..
and from that day on, I have never again, felt alone..

I never cried so hard the night before the morn..
I never had felt so harsh, the sting of love's thorn..
I never thought I would cry so hard..
I never thought I would try so hard..


I speak to him, daily, without moving my lips..
and it reassures me ,in its own way, through life’s dips..
I feel like I can concur the world with this on my side..
for my love of god and this life, I just can't hide..
but my love of you is what brought me here..
So for once I guess heartache makes it all clear..
I was low without you, but I can carry on..
Before night there was the morning's dawn..
Even though he helped me make the right choice..
talking to the creator doesn’t require my voice..
It's in my head and all to my interior well being..
cuz for him to show his signs, it's not about seeing..

I never tried so hard to make the wrong choice..
I never tried so hard to ignore this inner voice..
I never lies so hard to myself and my fate..
I never tried to hard, but just showed up late..

It's the parental force behind life and love..
It's the shinning love that is life above..
It's the force to know it's all under control..
It's the force to be reckoned with, it is your soul.

Talk to it, and you won't be alone..
Talk to it, it doesn't require a phone..
Talk to it, it's the best choice I found..
Talk to it, even if you just think this is profound..

I never tried so hard to parlay an issue
but incase all these points seem to miss you..

Talk to yourself for you're the voice inside..
Talk to the person that always wants to hide..
Talk to the soul that knows what it needs..
Talk to it, for you are planting the seeds..

09/11/2003

Posted on 09/11/2003
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