Why do I sabotage myself before I begin?
Why do I tell myself I’m committing a sin?
Why do I despise myself when I know the intentions are pure?
Why do I always seem to be so unsure?

What will I tell myself when morning starts?
What is this? A race of broken hearts?
What time will be my last call?
What will come of it all?

When is it my turn for a happy ending?
When it the date, or is all that pending?
When do you look me in the eye?
When is it my turn to cry?

Where are you?
Where is something true?
Where is the love I deserve?
Where is the tenderness in my nerve?

How am I to go on like this night after night?
How am I to make all of this all right?
How am I going to live like this?
How am I going to find my own bliss?

08/30/2003

Author's Note: I wrote this as a sort of question to myself... and went through the why what when where how question sequence...

Posted on 08/31/2003
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