I grit my teeth when I hear you wake up and try to get that phlem ball
out of your throat for 20 mins of wheezing and coughing which is your
morning ritual.
I cringe everytime I hear you pant as you walk down the hall..bumping
into everything from the wall to the floor...
I have nightmares about you constantly
and yet, I can never be free.. A nightmare in daylight to see you, smell
you.. hate you..
A nightmare when I close my eyes and see you in my dreams too.

your like the abcessed tooth that will never go away mixed with the
tacobell spicy sauce that lingers in that cavity just propelling the
pain into new realms.
You're like the things I despise about people.. Decitfull, shady . lazy,
disgusting and above all resentful of me even when I do you a favor.

Im the kind of person who's going to snap one day and shove that
cruicifix you hang over your bed so far up your ass, You'll know what
its like to feel god inside you.
Cram the savior so far your choking on his thorny crown.

I'm so over hearing your thighs rub together from down the hall..dear
god if you wear cordaroy, It sounds like Im in the middle of a drive by
with bullets whizzing around.

That cough you have, with the annoying hack at the end that you can hear
reverberate around the room, like a gunshot in an ampitheater.

The consitant snoring that I can hear through 5 walls...while I try to
watch tv to calm my nerves.

The way you blame me for shit I dont do.. like running the batteries
down in your caller ID box just to erase all the numbers of people who
dont call you or blaming me for getting porn advertisements in your
email...

The way you always point the finger at someone else for your faults..
The food industry is conspiring against me with donughts and deep fried
chicken. The medical system is against me, they wont perscribe me more
diet pills to help me with my disease.

The way you conspire against everyone. You talk so much shit about other
people, Im surprised you dont have brown teeth and halatosis.

The way you slam things around, Like your contstantly angry..be it a
coffee mug on a table, or the phone after you order a pizza. You make
joy out of being descructive, and then you wonder why you've been alone
for over a decade.

The way you've beaten your pets... Hitting them like you'd like to hit
people you hate. Treating them the foulest I've ever seen someone treat
anything, much less a living being that is supposed to be your
companion..and lets not mention how you've poisoned them when they
became a nuiscense to your daily routine.

The way you tell at your elderly mother like she was your enemy, how you
call her a whore, fuckface or any other of your personal favorites.

How you've poisened my family with your drama and theft.. How material
can you be? To steal from me, be it my money, my time, even my fucking
school supplies.. You just can't stop yourself... and I thought
crackheads were bad.

The way you boast your on a Nutrisystems diet to people.. and yet, you
go to KFC and eat a bucket of chicken in one sitting.

The way you used my folks to have a place to stay for over a decade rent
free and then have the nerve to tell them they owe YOU money.

The way you steal from your work, be it drugs from Ontime delivery, or
money bags from loomis and fargo.. I mean, what the fuck are you going
to do with an empty money bag? Dream you had money in it?

The way you talk shit about this family, like your not a part of it..
You're one of the main reasons they have had so many mental breakdowns..
It's hard dealing with someone like you on a constant basis.. Thay had
to move to romania just to get away from your badgering.

The way you lied about your abortion.. how you were seven months
pregnaut and decided then that you didnt want the poor soul... and how
the doctors must have felt when they had to cut the baby up into pieces
to remove it from your womb. I thank god they damaged it so bad you'd
never have kids after they way you treated your animals. I laugh at the
thought that maybe you have remourse for that one action that changed
your whole life... No children. Ever. Besides... You don't deserve to
have a plant, much less something you'd fuck up and release upon the
world.

I can't wait until the day I die, so I can forget this horrible
nightmare it was to know you.. much less know of you. I'd kill you
myself long ago if I didnt see the lesson in it all.. How this is your
punishment and my beast of burden...and how it taught me to get allong
with everyone.. even people who just exist to fuck me and my family over
on a constant basis.

06/26/2003

Author's Note: This was a personal fuck you letter to someone I know.. they say to vent, write.. so here it is, in all its demented glory...

Posted on 06/26/2003
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