I reach for breath, and it escapes me...
I stumble on my tounge as I try to gulp the air into my stomach...
My eyesight gets brighter and more descriptive as the blood flow
quickens...
I'm scratching the walls of my fishbowl on planet earth...
Fleeting feelings escape my timid mind as I think this might be it...
Darkness sneaks into the corner of my eyes as I see the brighter visions
be replaced by the demons of darkness and the pixies of sparkle in thier
battle of my consiosness..
My body fails me now as I tumble headlong into the soft underbrush that
I had tread upon
A moment lasting an enternity as my mind races into impact mode..

My arms try to raise, but it's like a horror flick, I can see it
happening, but I cant warn the D rate actor of the impending doom, I can
only sit and watch from a distance...

The demons gain ground as the swelling in my chest reaches gotic
porpotions and a switch in my brain clicks as my body goes for
shutdown..

My eyes close... and yet, I still see the world floating away in my own
bubble of reality...
I feel the heat of theafternoon sun burning me as I lay, face down in
the grass, away from my body for longer than a daydream..

The grass feels like a carpet of clouds underneath me..as I fall deeper
into myself..
Feeling the rush of life passing through my hands like sand clenched in
a fist.. Sure I can grab some.. but so much is just slipping away.

Sounds have escaped me.. just a dull beating drum far, far away. Faster
at first.. now just a slow dull thud.The darkness overtakes my mental
mind as I dream...

A world...at first, but I approach through the clouds, of a planet, much
like earth... full of people.. as far as the eye can see...as I got
closer, I realized all the people were naked and
slithering like snakes,all coiled in one another, sweaty, musky, and
ravishing each other.. like some massive planetary orgy... and then I
see my face.. Eyes closed... with these thousands of people around me,
Clawing at me, slithering on me, engulfing me, kissing me,and
penetrating me.

So overtaking is this feeling of exscuisite pleasure and pain... this
rush of the bodies under and over me.. this darkness engulfing me as
people slither over me and under me... I can't feel the ground, all I
feel is this constant movement around me. I feel like a drop of water in
a sea...

I feel as I'm falling backwards, spinning...Uncontrolable spinning..
sickening almost...The world disappears once more just when I was
getting to like it... as usual.

Now I feel the burn over my being..
I hear a siren in the distance... I think...
My hearing slowly returns as I find the siren was my ears ringing.. my
will is still not in the picture as I see nothing, yet hear the sounds
of birds growing louder and louder in the distance..

My eyes sparkle faint lights, but Im still not sure if it's in my eyes,
or just my dream..

The birds change in tone as I notice that they can't be birds, since
birds dont chirp like that.. I try to make it out clearer as my body
seems to be working... but I can't tell if it's just a dream...
The burn is still over my being.. the faint glitters of lights flicker
before me... the birds shut up and go away... I only hear a faint
noise.. but wait, it's getting clearer.. Are you ok, I make out after an
eternity...

I think no.. I just had an asthma attack...

06/26/2003

Author's Note: I wrote this about a blackout dream I once had...

Posted on 06/26/2003
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