i am sitting on the floor of your apartment
and i am thinking about what it all means
i am wondering about about everything you wanted
and i am wondering why that wasnt me
and i've been thinking, could you love me again
and i've been believing, that you never did before
and i am wondering how you got under my skin
cause i dont want you there anymore

its like those days we'd wake up crying
lost in our own oblivion just to pass the time
and even though i am lying here right next to you
i have never felt so alone

i've been saying that i never meant it all
and i think you know
that we tried to walk before we crawled
and every day i come home,
expecting you to be gone
and every day i come home,
to find out that i am wrong.
you think you tell me
gods words straight from your own mouth
you think i believe your quiet hymns
while i am screaming to get out

its like those days we'd wake up crying
lost in our own oblivion just to pass the time
and even though i am lying here right next to you
i have never felt so alone
because everything here has gotta fall down
and the days we'd say love would always last
have gone too fast- and they've already passed
moved into the emptiness that we find surrounds.

i am sitting on the floor of your apartment
and i am thinking about what it all means
i am wondering about about everything you wanted
as i start to unleash a scream
and you were thinking that i would never leave
you were thinking you had full control of me
for moments, i thought i could fight it-
and i'm still trying-

its like those days we'd wake up crying
lost in our own oblivion just to pass the time
and even though i am lying here right next to you
i have never felt so alone

04/03/2003

Author's Note: i wrote the first lines to this quite a while ago, and i just polished it off today.

Posted on 04/03/2003
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