it can't be because
I didn't love you
for I did
I had ope'd my chest
and given you my heart
and washed my body in tears
I cried so much for your love
I bled and I loved
until angels were jealous
It can't be because
I didn't try
for I did
I tormented my soul in labor
and suffered all of your barbs
and bore the weight of your life
until my back would break
I tried for you
until there was nothing left
to try for
how many lies had you dealt me?
and still I tried and I loved
how many burdens did I bear?
and still I tried and I loved
I bent my soul and let you
wrack my spirit
and still I tried and loved
I gave my very life for you
but that was not enough
I asked for solace, a holiday
to rest my weary soul
and still you gave me more
and still I tried and I loved
you lied
you cheated
and twisted my heart
until I was your puppet
and still you made me dance
and still I tried and I loved
so, then, why?
you could not grant me
one week of reprive?
I was not gone more
than one night
and then you took some pills
many many little white pieces of Nirvana
all wrapped up in your stomach
and then there was nothing left to love
and no more ways to try
so now I am alone
and free

09/23/2001

Posted on 09/23/2001
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