Getting Back to A Semblance of Order
08/20/2002 03:30 a.m.
Well now that last week is over things are getting easier. The funeral was rough, to see all 19 year old guys I grew up with crying. That was weird. And when Ryan did the eulogy there wasn't a dry eye, especially when he looked up and told Eric to save the table, seat across from him for when he gets there. I feel so bad for his family, and Ryan is really torn up. So when leaving I gave him a reassuring squeeze. What else do you say at a time like that. And since if the kid Eric was with had called an ambulance and not picked up eric, he might have a concussion and maybe be paralyzed, but he wouldn't have died. And that kid who did that showed up at the funeral. I can't imagine the guilt he must have knowing that he is the reason that Eric died, because he moved him when he shouldn't have. And then to see Nick and Ashley crying was hard. Then when it came time to lower the casket, I don't know how anyone can bury a loved one, that was the most difficult thing. To see a friend being placed in the ground. Nothing can chase that feeling away or the image of him at the wake. But things are looking up, the town isn't as somber. Although there was another minor car accident with TJ and a couple other kids. Then Jeff, another old friend, fell into a bonfire and got taken to the hospital for burns. Will these kids ever learn. I mean I am the same age, but in seeing all of this, there is no way I will ever go out and drink and drive, do drugs or do anything that might get myself hurt. I know too many people who have been hurt or killed, just recently from this. And they just keep on drinking, you would think that they might stop, even if it is only for a little while. Things are looking up though. It is nice to get the town back up to speed and go to work and relax. And of course now that things are better, I get a headcold and am wicked sick. So I think I am going to go to bed and hopefully sleep this off. Good night and thins are looking up, Thank God for that.
I am currently Bleh
I am listening to Sweet Misery - Michele Branch