Angry or Sad?
11/19/2001 01:04 a.m.
I don't know whether I should cry because he is gone or rejoice. I am sorry that is took me so long to realize how much of an asshole he really is. No one could hurt me so much and think he can get away with it. This has been ongoing for four years now. And as much as I love him I know now that I have to let him go. If he would just bring back my book of poetry I would never have to see him again except for the brief passing of his truck on the street. What else is there to do. He has the choice...her or me, and it is obvious to me now that he has chosen her. So I just have to sit back and wonder if all those years were just a waste of my time. How could he honestly do such a thing to me. Knowing how much I care for him. That hurts more than his taking her over me. At least I assume that is what he is doing seeing as I have not heard from him. My friend Theresa even called him last night and left a message demanding my book back, nothing works. I am left with no options, I simply no longer know what to do....
I am currently Scattered
I am listening to She Hasn't Heard It Yet - Jamie O'Neal