Lost In Hopes
11/07/2001 03:50 a.m.
I am really freaking out right now. My darling neighbor came over so we could talk, and as soon as he got here I froze up as I typically do. I look at him, smell that sweet cologne and I get so scared that I may lose him if I confess that I just can't. So we were nostalgic and watched that video of the prom night we shared together, hoping to jar those old memories from deep within him. And as he left I handed him my entire book of poetry and asked him to read it. Needless to say, there is a section of at least ten poems that pertain to him. I don't know what he is going to do or say when he gets there. I am so afraid that he doesn't feel the same. I don't want to lose him, but I can't keep it bottled up inside any longer for fear that I may burst. I love him, and no matter what happens, he has to know that. Well I am going to go to bed now and wait for the fateful phone call, or for him to show up at my door after work tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me, because you know I will be in silent prayer all night.
I am currently Unsure
I am listening to I'll Fly Away - Alison Krauss