I know what I should do
05/30/2006 05:28 a.m.
I should just tell him to leave me alone. I should let him disappear. And I should agree with him when he says he's a piece of shit. But I'm sitting here talking to him instead asking if he'll even try to fix things....how stupid am I this month?!? It's like I still hope tat it'll all workout in my favor, and really it can't. Nick and Josh will never accept him and never let it be. God I really hope I'm not just wanting him to want me and give me everything just to be like ok later. And at the same time I hope I' not holding on beause of last Sunday, but I think that may be it. Then again it's like that because when I made that decision I made it because I realized I could fall for him. Wow, I know how to pick em.....

Anyway, I'm gonna hit up the gym like a maniac whether I like it or not. And I'm getting off this all liquid diet, hahaha I gotta be sober to deal appropriately. Or maybe drunk Jenn would just say what's on her mind. Black cat...hahahaha...fuck that shit! Oh well, I'm gonna go ake that phone call like I told him I would.

Boys are stupid, and girls just aren't any smarter apparently.
I am currently Bleh
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