some people never change
05/07/2006 01:25 p.m.
after many years of wondering, i finally found an old..ex-boyfriend, shall we say....online. i found out what he's been up to for the last 6 years, for the most part...mostly getting into trouble with the law, and outing himself. (which actually came as no surprise to me) his looks havent changed, and his demeanor hasnt changed...he's still the ass that he always was.
which is why is why it astounds me that i wrote him. why i couldnt leave well enough alone, i had to message him to see if he would write back. he didnt. which too, comes as no surprise to me. he always was the kind that would pick and choose who was 'worthy' enough to be spoken to.
so why am i so...whats the word....disappointed. why am i STILL trying to get his approval. approval from a man on house arrest for dui. approval from someone who ALWAYS treated me like shit, and obviously continues to.
im married now, with a happy life. he is unhappy. his life is going nowhere. if i wanted just rewards, that would be it. i dont need to look any further for revenge....
but i really wanted him to have changed. i wanted to be able to talk to him and find out that there was a good person there after all.
it turns out that neither of us changed.