Do I Really Have Any Choice?
04/02/2006 10:06 p.m.

April 2nd, 2006

I woke up with a thought, visual, habitually interpreting it in words. I saw trains, not with the usual compartments, but scenes depicting events of different shades and colors, passing me at a very fast pace. There was no way I could stop them or change their direction/destination. But what I realized and verbalized for my own consumption is as under:

I have just three choices:

1. To board or to un-board one, playing an ACTIVE role in my own destiny.

2. To actively accept failures and helplessness. If I fail to un-board or board the one I had wanted to, so as not to feel helpless, play a RECONCILING role.

3. To not choose, and allow things to HAPPEN in PASSIVITY, letting the chain of events determine my destiny.

Do I really have any choice but to ACT?