From Beginning to Square One
03/30/2006 09:33 p.m.

March 23rd, 2006

Any beginning is a good beginning if it has an intended goal, translating a
thought or an idea into an act. They develop on their own to certain extent, as the laws seem to be, but in some time the line of growth tends to retard. It’s here where a WILLFUL human interference is needed.

I intended a beginning today but soon, before the day came to an end, it started retarding like many such beginnings in the past, bringing me back to square one.

Yes, the rate of exhaustion of energies are much faster than one conserves, and there are no energy banks one can deposit these energies to use judiciously. One needs energies to conserve more energies. One needs finer energies to refine energies.

I am struggling, resolved to fill all the pit holes which cause this fall not just by sheer resolve, but by translating these resolves into ACTION.

”It’s high time now.” I repeat this time and again for my own consumption while negotiating a ditch.