if only
02/18/2006 04:35 p.m.
if i could just feel connected to something, instead of this endless vast 'apart'. if i could find something to relate to besides body size or beauty. if i could find some way to communicate with someone or something....if there was someone out there who just wanted to TALK with me.
if my husband wouldnt be so damned optimistic all the time and realize that sometimes you hurt for no reason. if only i could put my faith in him, if i could believe in him.
if only sad songs didnt make me want to break down into tiny pieces.
if only i could write something that would make someone ANYONE truly understand how crumpled up and destroyed i am inside...