It's getting harder to breathe at night
11/10/2005 10:20 a.m.
I just can't seem to get myself away from this feeling of extreme depression. Nothing bad has happened lately, but it just feels like nothing has happened for soo long. I don't really know how to shake this feeling off, I don't get where it's coming from though. Life has been life, busy and hectic, but I just feel soo...soo...hurt in some profound way. It pains me....something in my chest, this sinking feeling just won't go away. I wish I knew what has lead to this, what series of events have I unravelled this evening?! I miss something, the old days, like really old, like 7 or so years ago. Gosh, those were really the days, I didn't car what the next person thought of me and I had just been set free from expectations. But I guess it's sometime after there that I never took a turn towards good or bad. I just seemed to stay along the path of mediocrity, it feels such a wasted life. I just can't seem to get myself to believe that it's still not too late for me, but I've surrendered to it.
I am currently Needy
I am listening to Jack's Mannequin