Random thoughts.
06/21/2005 05:53 a.m.
People are funny. I’ve become more and more perplexed as time goes by. I literally shake my head at the reality that people spew that has less to do with reality than with manipulations. I’m not talking about your basic perception versus reality, I’m talking delusional distortion of fact. People complicate everything with words like policy. If it’s legal, then it is so, whether it resembles truth or not. Money is man made, yet it is the center of our universe. Explain that to me.

I grew up without money. We moved 17 times in my youth, not because we were in the Army, but because we could not pay the rent. We wound up living in single motel room for a year and a half and living on this lady’s porch. The motel was not that bad and we were not the only family there, although it did take years of therapy to work through the sleeping arrangements (Me with my Mother and my brother with my Father.) The porch took much more therapy. Very bad times. But it was not money that made me who I am. I was raised to help people and to try to take the next right step. The one right in front of you. Make the right choices, though I know for a fact that my parents might be judged as failures for the situations we were in.

I don’t get it. I love the musical “Into the Woods” by Stephen Sondheim. The man is a wordsmith of the truest order. In the show, if you can make it through it, he talks about the truth and lies of the world. If you take each song individually, there is a beautiful message and a dissection of life truths. I’ve used these songs throughout my life to get me through. The evidence is out there in the form of artistic expression but it so lost in the reality of every day people. The truth is that you can speak truth in every word you say and distort the facts until you can not decipher the reality behind them.

I watched the movie “Mississippi Burning” this afternoon amidst all this Edgar Ray Killen nonsense. I mean, they are deadlocked after 3 hours. It doesn’t make any sense to me. We are not that far removed from this time in our history. My question is, is reality taught? Is it all perception, because I was apparently taught wrong. Nothing makes any sense at all. The legal system, our system of government, our morality as a nation seems so out of whack to me, it beyond irrational. I can’t wrap my brain around it.

I’m not making any sense tonight. Too much information in a wee little brain.

I am currently Disillusioned
I am listening to None