It's another rambling at 2 am
05/16/2005 06:32 a.m.
All I want to do is be completely blunt...but aparently I don't have the proper veil to hide my secrets....
Ahhh...forget it...FUCK YOU JOE!! Oh I feel much better now. I don't get it, doesn't anyone learn that you'll never end up with someone in the end if all you do is play mind games?! At least that's how it happens in the movies. Too bad it doesn't hold true to real life. In real life, good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to the best of people; karma does not exsist. I just wish you could be served your own recipe to try and save future girls from your complete and utter bullshit of a relationship. I wish I had the sand to warn your poor prey how they will fall victim to you... but who'd think anything of my warning but a bitter ex's jealousy. Oh well, I'll just try hoping the old nice Joe will find the girl to throw it all away for and be real with.

ANYWAY............


God, hearing you say my name really turns me on. Even just thinking about it later in the day sets me aflame.


So I was just wondering if Chris popped the question to his girlie. He's really young to be getting married, but I think I'm a tad jealous, wanting to have something final and really start that secong adult part of life...but it'll have to wait. Hmmm...me married??? It just sounds so strange, I can't really grasp the idea of someone being able to tame me much longer than three months, or if I found someone that could it'd probably be vice versa. I want it all though....the baby dreams really keep getting to me, but I know I'm not ready yet...the idea is just starting to fester.

Haven't learned anything new yet, but I'll be playing tennis and learning volleyball this week, so it's a start. I'm so excited to learn guitar, it's silly, but always fun to have another interesting useless talent.


I'm still taking another moment to enjoy relapse images of the other night...don't mind if you know, actually it's kinda hot.............


I seem to be forgeting something.....I'm not sure what, it's just something hanging in the air until my head does that little click and I can say OH YEAH! I dunno, I wanna go on a road trip to some state I've never been to, but I don't think I'll get off of work for long enough to really have the time to enjoy one. Can't wait to go to Tallahassee this year....wait.....OH YEAH, now I remember it! I thought about calling an old friend I haven't spoken to in almost two years. wouldn't that be so strange and random of me?! I know I pobably should stop my obsession with people from the past, but I just can't seem to meet any new people to recruit as potentials. So I've become good at relying on the past to lend a hand until I move on again. It's kinda funny, like I'm sorta digging into a blackbook or something another.

GOSH, I'm all over the place tonight. Maybe I'll try some sort of formation another day.
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