One More Try: April 6th, 2005
04/27/2005 06:17 p.m.


I know what must be done, but knowing on an intellectual plane isn’t enough unless this knowing is thoroughly internalized to the extent that it becomes
almost an obsession and is applied in ACTION. I know I must remember to remember, but how do I remember to remember to remember? It’s not a joke. I am serious. I am frustrated. This is an almost irresolvable problem I have been facing ever since I KNOW that I know and resolved to remember to remember.

Nature is against intentional remembering. The LAW is for remembering subject to the LAW OF ASSOCIATION. Associations with the external cause desires; thoughts having associations with the desires cause thoughts that cause desires, all on their own, caused by the external stimuli’s. But as I know of these LAWS, The LAW OF ASSOCIATION is always subject to THE LAW OF REPETITION. The more a suggestion is repeated, the more it tends to create associations, and associations are the energy sources of all the selves, desired or undesired. This is why I think I should make this endeavor to BE an obsession on my part and put it into action by remembering, that is, by registering post remembering suggestions and by repeating and creating as many associations as I can.

When I say “I”, I mean my INTENTIONAL I. But creating associations isn’t enough. It’s not enough because we all tend to remember and act mechanically if we repeat the same thing again and again. The act it self becomes mechanical, like when you learn to drive a car and this process becomes mechanical in due course of time. So, I must remember to remember, and for this I need to live from moment to moment active, alert, and alive. For this to happen I must remember to remember that I must live from moment to moment active, alert, and alive to vouch for my self that I don’t come up with some trick that lures myself away.

Yes, one is required to remain active, alert, and alive to counter the onslaught of the Nature and its LAWS that shall never allow you to BECOME. Well, I will give one more try, and if I fail, I will give one more……and one more. I am left with no choice, I am condemned to live. So, I shall LIVE to the best of my ability.