old feelings
11/24/2004 05:39 p.m.
I don't know if he still holds to what I thought we had. I was fairly sure that if I went to college or he left the country or we were just far apart, we'd always be connected by some kind of thread. I feel like we are special. I always have felt like that. in high school I interpreted it as soul mates or love or something. now, I don't really know. but I still feel a connection. like the Marquise and the Vicomte. but let's not go there cause that book didn't have a good ending for either of them. it's sill there for me. I hope, I wish, I'd really like it if it were still there for him. it's nothing. it's so... easy. I'm not asking for love or kisses or mushiness or anything but the acknowledgement that we're good together. we have something. I'm not quick to use the word chemistry because it has sexual connotations. that's not what I mean at all. it's more a brother/sister or mother/son or cousin/cousin thing. I don't know. but I wish I did.
I am currently Warm
I am listening to myself singing Modest Mouse