GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
11/03/2004 05:35 a.m.
As much as I enjoyed these past 48 hours of you, I shouldn't have. I can't stop fidgetting right now, and I can't get the thought of you out of my mind for long. I don't want to fall for you, I know how it would end....badly. I can't fall for you, you don't date people...wait, I mean, you don't date me. I've been through this crap before with you, I thought that I knew you then and I think I know you know.......but, I don't know. I don't know what to think of this change in you, another fucking with me situation, or you seriously changing who you were. Oh God, oh shit, fuck fuck fuck fuck!!! Scenario 1 ends with you not being mine, and even with the best possible scenario you'd end up breaking my heart. I can't sleep with you......oh God I really can't; because I'm starting to like you too much. That's never happened before.....you scare me because I know you could hurt me even more then Joe did, far past what shit Jeff pulled, and shatter the pieces I pulled from the wreckage.

I hate you, I despise you,I know what you do to girls...and with all of that, I can't help but want you.


Your hands are too close, covering all of my skin and sending the chills to southern regions. I haven't laid in someone's arms for so long, I don't want to confuse lonliness with feelings for you. I can't take you knowing all of the signs that tell you I'm yours, I can only control my words and facial reaction, but the beating heart and quivers give me away.

You love my body for my pheromones, that smell you can't describe but always tell me is nice.
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