he's gone for sure I know it
09/27/2004 12:02 a.m.
cause I can't be there. I can't be what he needs. physically or emotionally or whatever. and I feel like such and idiot cause I have these breakdowns with Eric where I wonder if I should have just asked Koye to marry me years ago because no one... I mean NO ONE... understands me like Koye does and I'm so scared that I'm going to lose that and I'll never find it again and that's the most terrible thing. someone who knows you and really understands you and still fucking loves you is someone you should hold on to with everything you have. and my God I'm just so scared I haven't held onto him tight enough. I hate me sometimes.
I am currently Violent
I am listening to nothing