she is a fat guy named Hector
02/23/2004 12:00 a.m.
I am spinning with emotion. For the past week I felt insanely destructive. I scared a few people that know me really well by not being my usually talkative cynical self in some of our classes. But none of them asked why. Megan wanted to know why Dan and I were being nice to each other, but beyond that not a single question about my emotional state.

Friday morning I got to fly the balloon we made in physics. I think I put all my anger and disappointment into it when it was let go. And it crashed into a tree. Afterwards I felt like dancing under the stars until I collapsed from exhaustion. I spent the weekend with people who are just as disappointed with the things in our lives as I am. I love them to pieces. Especially when I see that they are as fragile as anything and need to be loved.

I need it to rain...
I am currently Empty