this love has taken its toll on me
02/17/2004 04:38 a.m.
MTV sometimes.

but only sometimes.

I just heard "My Immortal" by Evanesence. wow. and thinking of how he must have heard it. it's a great song. wow. and just... well, it made me sad.

and there are regrets and minutes and notes and kisses and tears so many tears and joy and trust and betrayal and... yeah.

but then I look at it from the rational side. Koye and how much we were hurting him. how perfect Eric is for me. how perfect Jess is for him. and it makes me think, ok, maybe we did it in the VERY hardest way possible, but we worked things out.

such feelings. my.

and now my Maroon 5 song is on. I'm enjoying it greatly.

this is all just too much. I have too many emotions. I'm not even going to try to pick one.

(edit: I paused after writing this and tried to place exactly what my feelings for Tommy are at this moment. what did I come up with? I compared it to how I feel about Simeon. which is really weird since I never dated Simeon. but that is what I'm feeling.)
I am listening to maroon 5!