A million thoghts condensed into this tiny box...
01/20/2004 08:18 a.m.
Let's try.

How I feel...

Nautious..Depressed..Stoned..tired.

Why?

Been a long day, up at 9am, went to bed at 3... worked 12 hours.. came home... hung out with someone from work.. smoked.

What's you're problem then?

I feel like my life is pointless. Like this life is wasted... I feel like I'm not living the life I should be. Like I know there's greatness out there for me, but I'm afraid to seek it out in fear of rejection.

Rejection? Right? Something we all fear... As I know rejection well.. we're best freinds most of the time.

Needless to say, this all just makes me question.. what in the hell am I doing with my life? Suicide waiting to happen? Trenchcoat mafia down at the school yard? Powdered sugar to the pentagon?

I feel lost.. Like I knew one time what I wanted to do, but I never pursued it.. just like I dont pursue anything else in my life.. like I'm too laid back for that or something. Like I'm willing to just let it all pass me by.. run off into the sunset with my dreams..

This last two weeks has sucked most of all..Horrible job, great people.. suck ass pay... even more depressing than usual...

I dunno.. I'm gonna take a shower and get some sleep, maybe I'll feel better tomorrow..
when I have to work... again... on my night off...

fucking people man.. You just help them out.. and what happens? they ask for it all the time.

So... I've had some great quotes of late..

Love's just another 4 letter word..

(but I'm sure that's been used a million times)

My mom's so fat, she's got a stuffed porkchop for a pussy.

(sorry mom)


Anywho...

So I've been having weird dreams again too..I'll post the one about the little girl and her brother shot on the train...

Weird stories to tell as well.. strangness about sexual contact between employee's and underage debauchery... but that story is going to have to wait...

I need sleep... and a new life... or maybe a new outlook... but a good snuggle always improves that outlook.

Check yah later, mannnn...


I am currently Tired
I am listening to Fell in love with a boy : Joss Stone