We were......once
01/18/2004 01:59 a.m.
So it hasn't even been that long and I have missed so much....too much has come and gone.

I had you the other week, something I promised myself that I wouldn't indulge on while you were visiting. Oh God, will this ruin everything that we've built together, that stupid silly friendship where I get to make fun of you for dating the "youngins", and now if I make a comment you'll think it's jealousy. Ohhhhh, I shouldn't have let it get that far, I should have just kept on sticking to the plan....don't let him have me. But the air was foggy and I couldn't see that far ahead of me, I couldn't stop myself.

I can't look you in the eye, and even then you wouldn't see
I'd still be some mystery, still undiscovered territory.
I'm taken aback by you stare, from how deep you seem to be looking in my eyes, from the deepness I can see into you.

Holding my hand, rubbing the stretch of skin seperating my fingers from my thumb, and my eyes flicker back in their socket, and then you grab my face........my dreams were much sweeter.

I need to feel the weight of your body on top of mine, where our heat can intensify and produce new pheromones, making the moment even hotter. Kiss me, touch me, hold me, closer.

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Last night you told me you love me, you told me you'd always love me, and that you hope I feel the same for you....
and I do.
I do sometimes wonder what it'd be like if we were to get back together, if all of this mess were to be sorted and then we could return to us. But please, please don't make me have to think about it if you won't change. Don't even get my mind to start putting you back in its "present" if you'll never really be there, if you'll never come back.

Tomorrow night, tomorrow night we shall be what we use to be.

Oh this is a stupid entry, full of regrets and wishes, no resolutions.

We will be....
I am currently Insecure
I am listening to Your voice