Sleepytime's near
01/11/2004 09:22 a.m.
I feel so dis-attached from this world.. Like I used to exist.. but now.. hell now I just feel like a dead man walking.. I don’t get phone calls anymore.. save from like 2 people.. and even those are rare.. It’s not like I’m trying to be rude.. but I guess when you’re broke, you’re options to hang out are pretty few…

Speaking of lack of moolah.. I got a new job, I start Monday.. I don’t know how long it will last, since after all it’s the company that I keep going back to.. I think I’ve worked for them on and off for about 7 or 8 years now… kinda scary, but in a sense, it’s security.. I know the in’s and out’s of that place like no one else.. well.. I used to anyways…and since it’s really hard to get a steady gig as a bartender around here.. I’ll have to just suck it up and take it for what it is… 3 weeks of hard work to get my license back.. then comes the car issue down the road… I’d better just stick to baby steps for now..

I’m also in the midst of making my own little t-shirt company.. but that’s something that will take a while.. and I’m worried about content restrictions… well.. if this site has them anyways…I’ve always dreamed about owning my own t-shirt company… mainly because of my twisted sense of humor.. but I don’t know… We’ll see if I can motivate myself with lack of funds..

I came up with an idea for a blog… I’m thinking about just posting all the conversations I have with people online in a blog.. sense it seems I waste my best stuff talking to my friends… not to mention, I figure it’d give the insight that I can’t describe about myself.. shows you how I think, how I feel.. etc… Well.. if you’d care to know anyways…

I feel a sense of dread about all this.. all these writings, all these glimpses of my soul… these show you everything about me.. You could crucify me with my own words… but hell.. not like it’d matter to me… I never claimed to be gods gift to the written word… more like the worst thing to happen to it..

I’m going to bed…maybe my dreams will inspire me..


I am currently Tired