Another one of those days...
12/29/2003 03:42 a.m.
You ever have one of those days that just seems to go sour by the time the sun goes down?
Honestly.. I don't know what brought it on... I was cool today... but for some reason... I just started getting all emotional.. started missing my old friends/lovers.. started to get hard on myself.. and hell.. now it's 10:30p
and all I want to do is crawl into bed..

I don't know what brings these things on.. probably some imbalance in my mind or something... something missing..

I'd say that I'm just unhappy with myself.. no matter what I do.. no matter how I try.. I slide right back into this tomb of depression.

I'm not living my life...and I'm scared.

I wish I could just put my life down on paper... I wish. but it would be misunderstood and held against me...
Maybe it'll be published after I'm dead..
maybe.

I don't think people would be able to handle it. I barely handle living the aftermath..

I wish I could just press a button and restart my life. This one sucks...This is is depressing, sad, depraved and suicidal. I just wanna crawl into a box and forget this life... forget this name.. forget who Aaron Howard even is.
My life... my joke...My mistake.

I'll live... or maybe not.
I am currently Depressed