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12/02/2003 04:49 p.m.
I was reading through Angel Esclave's poems so I could pick which ones to put on my favorites list and a question struck me that hasn't in a long time. but I don't know if I should ask it.

was it me that was being referenced all those times? or him? was I the one missed, loved, cried over? or him? I didn't know then, and I still don't.

and now that I've asked it, it seems like a horribly selfish thing to ask. I don't know. but sometimes you just wonder... where do I stand really? where am I on the list? and then you feel like a fucking jerk cause... maybe you didn't put someone first all the time. or at least, they felt they weren't put first. I mean, if you make them feel second-best... then you're treating them second-best, I suppose.

and now I've gone on a terrible tangent that may cause wars. I hope not.

gr.
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