what I've been avoiding..
11/29/2003 08:06 p.m.
I havent really written in here alot latly.. mainly because I tried to take on too much at one time...

I really burned myself out writing for a while it seems, I havent felt like dealing with it.. I dont really know why.. mainly because I guess its that I've been depressed.. trying to get a job and all, working for that pie in the sky, etc.. it's been a real pain in the rump.

I havent been sleeping good at all latly, but what else is new? My sleep pattern is really shot to hell.. and I've been trying to wreck it, so I could change it back, but it's only thrown me more out of wack.. I fell asleep yesterday at 1pm and slept till midnight.. god.. IM such a freak...

It's been realyy windy.. but I like the wind.. I can hear the leaves on the trees outside talking.. rushing and slapping.. I love it.. it's acaully wonderful outside today.. a little cold.. but then again, I like the cold..
I've been sick tho.. the damn season changes always fuck my up for a while.. I dunno what the deal is.. the best i can figure it's from the mold of the dying leaves...

My love life is a joke.. I keep meeting people who freak me out.. and it's really starting to bother me.. I dunno.. maybe I am destined to be alone.. at least then I wont be all stressed out and depressed because I dont have anything to offer to anyone.. espically someone who really wants the world.. You just feel so out of place.. alienated of sorts.. God... what a fucked life I lead..

Hmmm... what else..

I wrote some new stuff this morning.. I just felt in the mood to write.. the wind was blowing, nice breeze.. smell of hardee's blowing through my window reminding me of chicken at lunchtime.. that's proabbly the only thing that really sucks about living where I do.. You tend to smell all that the fast food place is cooking.. so I dont think I wanna eat fried chicken for a couple of months after I move out of here... sheesh.. and I LOVE CHICKEN>.. bah..
I better go before I expire my time limit and lose this post... enjoy the new poems... I'll try and write more..

I am currently Bleh
I am listening to Wind through my window...