And yet... another day...
11/06/2003 07:27 p.m.
Hmmm.. Where to begin...

You ever feel like your heart is pulled in a thousand different directions at once? Like your head is swimming in a sea of boiling water... and you're not sure of what to do?

I do.

You ever feel like you know what the right choice is, but for some reason... You're still afraid to admit that you'd be right for once to pick it?

I do.

You ever wish that things could just be cut and dry? Just simple little tasks, where you make the right descision and then you know everything is ok?

I do.

You ever feel that because you are lonly.. you fall in love too easily with the person who seems to be the most like you and common words seem like poetry...

I do.

What I don't feel is remourse.. I think I deserve someone to love.. I'm not sure if it's the right time or place though.. but I hope...make that wish... that it is... I'm so tired of looking around at people who'd love to be with me and seeing an empty hole that I'm supposed to fill.. I'm distended with pain over the lack of companionship these last 6 months... and how it seems the people I've loved have faded from my life, save a few people that I will always love and cherish.. mainly people who put up with me.. and my personal luggage of pain and sacrifice. I feel sometimes I fall head over heels too easily for someone.. without getting to know the stranger inside of them.. I try to hold myself back.. but I am the simpleton who thinks that you should love like you've never been hurt before.. why shouldn't you? You deserve love.. You deserve to be snuggled in the midnight hour... You deserve to be you without fear of thinking you might be rejected for what you love and cherish. Ahhhhh... and all this in the first 2 hours of being awake... I have a feeling this is going to be a long day.


I am currently Better
I am listening to the song of the wind through leaves