Exposure to new ideas...
10/17/2003 12:36 p.m.
Well I havent gotten much feedback about my new reinvention, but to be honest.. it's not for everyone.. I'm more or less writing what I see and feel now.. not writing something that's sugercoated and sweet to the palate anymore.. I'm doing something for myself for a change.. I'm over being the nice guy who bends over backwards to appease the people who say they love me and my work, but really.. they just love the illusionary image of me they have...
I love how now I can express myself alot better without having to come up with something that rhymes with the last line or stanza.. I like the freedom it gives me.. I don't know if I should even consider this poetry anymore, since I don't really even know the definition of poetry anymore after years of reading dribble and complaining...
I've been doing alot of reading on the web, alot at Smog.net.. I suggest you check out the site, really eye opening for alot of people.. enjoyable to the rest. I used to not like to read other people's writing.. afraid that it would infect me with their words and make me produce works like theirs.. but I have found.. in my old age.. it doesnt infect you.. it inspires you. Reading something is alot like eating something... You consume it, you make the most of it..and use it in your daily life. It's not going to infect you, or make you sick.. it's only going to hinder you for the time you take to consume it.. then.. comes the energy that only another can give..
When people read something it's set in stone.. it's been said.. it can never be resaid or retold, without that new taste to the tounge diminishing.. I like that new taste.. reminds me of childhood and the way the world smelled all fresh and new.. now.. I just smell gasoline fumes and decay..my.. how much difference 20 years makes..
I am currently Anxious
I am listening to the song of the wind through leaves