First impressions are the most important, right?
10/06/2003 08:38 p.m.
You know what I love? Meeting people off the internet... it's like a drive by into someone's life.. They might tell you one thing online, but in person...you get to see, hear and deal with the shit that is part of their life... It reminds you that maybe you life isn't so fucked up afterall..
I'm not saying that everyone you meet is that way, but a majority of the people that seek out to meet people on the internet already have problems.. that's why they want to meet people.. maybe someone that can help them out of the hole they are in.. maybe someone to just make them laugh..
Then you get the honor of walking into an ongoing trainwreck.. something where nothing feels right, where everything is awkward.. Where if you sleep over you just have nightmares and cold sweats.. Where the only thought in your mind.. is to flee...
I've been through alot of dramatic relationships in my life, so I've seen drama.. basically used to it for the most part.. but when you walk into this kinda situation, you're just happy that's not your life anymore. Sad, but true in it's workings of some people's existence..
Someone's enviroment speaks volumes.. unkept, trash everywhere, and disorganization just tells you the horrible truth about someone.. about how they think.. how they deal with life and how the think about themselves...
It's gottan to the point.. I've noticed.. I love these people's pets more than the owners..If I've seen enough hate and pain in a house, usually there is a pet around that you know needs some attention... I've come to love strangers cat's and dogs more than the friendships..knowing proabbly it will be my only time there in that sort of situation.. Strange, I know.. but it's something I'd thought up...
Alot of people have problems.. I know.. and I don't blame them, or the world for that matter.. sometimes life just deals you a shitty card in life.. and you have to bear that cross.. I know.. but have self respect.. for yourself, your guests and your pets..
A first impression is lasting with me.. what comes out of your mouth, hell.. what you put into it.. and I'm picky.. not per se' about who I consider a friend, but who'd I consider someone who'd I'd want to form a real bond with.. I'm a cleanfreak by some standards, I guess.. but things should be clean.. I'm not talking white glove inspection clean, but no plates and trash on the floor, or a bed with no sheets kinda thing.. I mean, C'mon..at least try.. I figure these are resonable requests for a human being.. I mean we're not still in the stone age, right?
But I thank my stars for the friends, even the life I've had after situations like that.. and it really makes me happy to know that I could slip into some rut.. but I don't think I could ever get down to the level of drama that is that trainwreck. Best of wishes to the first impression.. lol
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