Nepotism on pathetic...
10/05/2003 12:37 p.m.
You ever get the feeling you don't belong somewhere? Like you're unwelcome? Like it's always the squeaky wheel that gets the oil? I do. I feel that way seriously about pathetic.org...
Someone sent me a nasty message a couple of days ago, and I just recieved it this morning.. and it really reminds me of how people on here are all about themselves. How people on here dont seem to realize that this is supposed to be a community. I won't comment really about what the letter said or even what it was about. I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to post messages on the discussion board anytmore since it seems I aggravate some people with the topics I've broght up in the past.
I'm over people giving me low votes out of spite.. I'm over people asking me why I've never made poem of the day or been in the poet spotlight. So what I don't believe in your version of god... Fuck you. I don't tell you your god is dead and that your a moron, so why waste your time trying to spite me? I'll repeat that.. FUCK YOU and your mother too..with a chainsaw...gently even. Yes I'm mad.. furious in fact. The only reason why I don't quit out-right is because I have made friends here and I don't see the point in abandoning them just because someone wish's to be a cock.
I will say this.. I dont ever want to be in the poet spotlight, I don't ever want my work to be poem of the day. I dont even waste my time looking at that shit, espically since I've seen the whole staff of Pathetic be in the spotlight, but yet, I've been here since the beginning and havent even made poem of the day more than once. Maybe my work sucks.. I agree.. but I've seen alot more shitty work posted on the front page in one month than I could ever possibly come up with. I've seen more dribble come out of the rated poems than a four year old could write.. so it's just a corrupt system in my eyes. I dont want to be a part of that.. hence why I took the votes back off my work..
I wish you all well, since really when it comes down to it.. I'm not going to expose myself anymore to the bullshit that I've allowed in the past... so unless you have something good to say or something about how I could improve.. keep your words to yourself.

I am currently Angry
I am listening to fuck all that spotlight noise...it's just a sympathy vote.