Well now... Isabel's gone...
09/25/2003 02:07 p.m.
Ahhh.. What a long time it's been.. or at least it seems...
People here still don't have power.. the water's safe to drink in some places... the worst is over and the rebuilding has begun... but I feel empty inside for some reason.. I see people slipping back into non-social behavior... I see people sitting back in thier favorite ass grooves in front of the TV... Does electricity really destroy humanity by making us so anti-social? With no power, people we're talking... laughing.. in the dark even.. candlelight.. a beer.. and friends..
Now.. that the power is back on, everyone is just sunk right back into being the media whore's the were.. not tuning into the radio to hear where things were open, what to do in case a tree falls on your house.. We felt like we really pulled together.. and now that everything is back to "normal", everyone is just sinking back into thier meaningless existence without a word to the neighbor now..

I went through alot in this last week.. alot more than most, I guess... I mean everywhere else in the country people could see where the storm was, the footage on the weather channel... but not me.. I was stuck wondering if the tree's were gonna crash through my wall... Funny thing, it wasen't really nerve racking or anything like that.. It was more on the lines of expect the worst, but pray for the best...and I'll admit there was alot of praying going on.. I mean you dont hear about all this destruction and think that you're still gonna get off scott free... which is really how our cards got delt.. I've herd of alot of people around here who lost thier homes.. and lord forbid if you happend to be one of the nine poor souls that died.. then again, most of them died from driving around during the worst part of a hurricane, so maybe it falls more under thinning of the herd... ::shrug:: but still..

For 7 days, we didnt have power.. So I really spent that time with family.. since they couldnt hide behind a tv or shuffle off to channel surf.. We all sat around a candle and listened to the local radio..mostly talk shows.. my folks love the drama, it seems.. I'm not a big fan, but I endure it for the sake of arguement.. but speaking frankly, I enjoyed it.. it gave us some time to bond a little more.. it made us better.. sure, we didnt have lights or hot water.. and even so.. We still didnt care.. We enjoyed the time, hopeing everything was going to be alright.. Well, maybe I'm the only one.. they were pretty misrable towards the end when it got about 100 degree's inside the house with no outside breeze..

::sigh:: thinking about life without electricity is so far off, it's unimaginable... but when it happens.. People go two ways... Think of it as an addiction, or as a luxery...I consider it a tool, but thats mainly because I feel I can't write on a pad and pen.. It's to final for me.. most people, it's proabbly all three.. but I think humanity has lost something out of our electricity.. some primal contact with one another.. then aagin, maybe that's just sociecty in a whole.. each gemeration conpletes another turn in the downward spiral that is the human existence.. You see such great acts by us and yet you sense that things are getting more and more wrong by the day.. Not impending doom, but something like we're getting softer and softer as time passes, more pc and less correct.. like We're slowy getting boiled, instead of burned outright...

Maybe it's just me and I'm getting too deep for something like this to convey.. but then again, I'm just sharing.. and thats what this is for.. =)
I am currently Anxious
I am listening to I'm not... I'm cupping my ears and going La LA LA LA!!!