Rock on!!! Love is back in town...
09/13/2003 09:47 a.m.
Recently, I had the honor to talk to someone that I met off the internet a long time ago, well..about two years ago.. so it's not really that long..
Well, we fell out of touch and didnt really talk to each other.. but in these last two days of talking, it's like everything is back.. We had so much in common it's scary... to me anyways..I'm not really used to meeting someone who loves the same music, the same media, and even my warped sense of humor... Hell.. even addictions.. It's refreshing to think that even though someone could lose track of someone for a vast space of time, you can just wander back into a friendship and find all these new things about someone in just a matter of hours... Well I think we're up to about 10 hours of conversation so far.. but it still feels like there's a limitless amount to talk about.. Honestly, it's rare that someone can hold my intrest like that.. Most people bore me with thier sappy sadness, or thier moaning and bitching.. but Lin just grasps my mind and my heart in one hand and shakes the dice... I could go on for hours about her.. I'm really at a lack of what to tell you.. I don't want to intrude into the privacy of our relationship and share it with you all like it means nothing to share something with only one person.. but It's like a secret you wish you could share with the world, but were just too afraid to because it wouldn't be as special anymore. She's the only one I've really known that I could just spend hours hearing her voice and not get stale.. and the best part is, It's not sexual.. I love it! I look foreward to talking to her.. even right after I get off the phone..
I've been through this whole Long distance relationship thing before and it's always been a heartbreak.. but looking at this with a fresh mind and with a brave heart... I feel like I could do anything.. Like most of the soulmates in my life, I feel like she makes me a better person.. Someone who might just understand me for me.. Someone who might love me for who I am and who I might become... Someone who makes me want to strive for something more than just a kiss, lay and a goodbye. It always seems that when you become comfortable with being alone that someone comes into your life (again) and makes you want to change all of that (for the better). I truly think I could fall in love with this woman, head over heels type of love.. the kind that makes you giggle like a three year old being tickled... WTF? Look at me, I've already written all this.. and this is just off the top of my head... maybe that's a sign.. Maybe I'm too easily swayed in the area of romantic realtionships.. but when you meet someone where you can just be yourself.. where you can just open your mouth and let the words just spill out.. it's soooo refreshing.. I can't even do that with my best friends.. So I guess looking back on it all.. I guess they really arn't my best friends.. they might act it.. but they don't know my secrets like she does.. they don't know what I am under this skin of my exterior.. which is really sad to admit at this point in my life..but when you feel sort of alienated from your friends, it's strange to have someone come back into your life who reminds you of what honesty and trust are really all about. I've been so wrapped up in all of this, I barely have had time to think about the other stuff in my life.. as her too.. and I feel like that If gone unchecked it would complicate things.. So I've really kept a watchful eye on both of us.. making sure we just don't drop everything in our lives at the chance of someone who really loves us. As the saying goes, If you eat all the pizza, you won't have breakfast in the fridge (thats me)... I'm sure you'll hear more about Lyndsey in the future... as she really has me inspired about love and myself... It's soo rare for me to think about soulmates again after the tragic relationships I've had in the past.. How to look foreward to talking to someone..and meeting them in real life.. I just hope that I'm not setting myself up for another heartbreak.. but then again.. It'd proabbly help my crappy writing out with more depressing looks into my life... only time will tell..






I am currently Excited
I am listening to the voices in my head telling me to shut up