somewhere out among the stars, one shines exceptionally bright
08/27/2003 12:40 a.m.
to my uberlywonderfulest poet: i love you and your writing, as it sets my soul ablaze and allows my darkness to be encompassed by light for a short period of time at least. you are a fallen star, shining brighter than those left in the sky for everyone to expreience.
i have yet to write a piece i felt deserved any consideration from the talent as i have seen here. maybe tonight the sad, lonely inspiration will come and i will feel the words corse through me like an orgasm, the flow unmatched by almost anything else on earth. there are so many days when the voids inside my head slice me, to the point where i think the pieces should be coming out of my head, my craziness visible to all. the pain is unmatched by anything physical i have ever expreienced, and lately i have sincerely wanted to make my pain real, physical. but i restrain, i survive and move on, i grow stronger.... i love Plato's ideas and thoughts and i embrace them because they tell a lot about us as people...my favorite being that there are two worlds, and we are not really living in this one, we are merely shadows cast down from the intelligable world. ah, yes, i am a shadow, fleeting and unable to be either tamed or caught. also according to Plato, recounting a story by Homer, there once was a beautiful creature, the bisexual human, who had two sets of hands, feet, heads, etc. this human insulted Zeus, and he in turn cuts the human into two beings. many struggles in life, including the need for a mate adn being in a relationship, may be traced back to this event, when we lost a part of ourselves and we are constantly trying to find and merge with our missing half... that is what i have been spending my life doing...searching for ***the perfect match***
I am currently Troubled
I am listening to Dashboard Confessional