second day in statesboro
08/18/2003 03:19 p.m.
It's been... different. Yesterday Eric and Mark did things together. I was in my room for a while, just getting used to things, putting up pictures, stuff like that. Eric called and told me all he and Mark had done and that Chariece had come by. Somehow he got to the point that they were friends in high school and he couldn't just ignore her, in fact, he might hang out with her at some point. Well, I, the most unreasonable person to ever exist, had a problem with that. But I didn't really know what it was... just that I was suddenly crying and Eric was on his way over. Before he got there I laid on my bed crying and understanding why. Eric has people here. Friends. I am anti-social and have only been here for one semester. I don't have Ashley anymore. Eric is all I have here. The only people I really know are Eric and his friends. It's hard for me to make friends. I'm afraid of doing that. What if they don't like me? What if I'm not cool enough? Smart enough? Pretty enough? Whatever? I'm afraid to make friends. So I've become this cling-machine to Eric. But he was, of course, wonderful and sweet and vowed to be there for me when I was feeling alone and to help me make some friends. We watched Donnie Darko last night in his lobby to try to attract some people. I didn't actually meet anyone, but some people sat and watched it with us and we all talked. Later on we went to Robin's room and talked to a bunch of people. Tomorrow we're having the Kennedy Meat and Greet (a cookout) that I wasn't planning on attending but Eric thinks I should. So I'm going to cause I really would like to meet more people. Ok, so basically I'm 3. Quite a baby, this one.

You'll laugh... I'm in Eric's computer lab right now. :D Oh well.

So now I'm going to go see what books I can buy from the store before class starts tomorrow. A good week to all.
I am currently Shy
I am listening to Beyonce and Jay Z on the TV in the lobby