Getting Older
08/17/2003 05:10 p.m.
*One day Mel and then you'll be a BIG girl!*

But me, I never wanted to grow a day after I turned sixteen. Hell I don't care if I couldn't go watch a rated R movie or get into the clubs....I just didn't want to grow up and become jaded. Because when the pain is over, that's what you are, jaded. And I really don't want to have to leave, to move away and go out into the "real world". Away from all of the things I know and the people I've come too close to, to leave without my heart tearing in two, or threes, and fours, and fractions of pieces split all over the place. (Get the scotch tape Mel) Somehow I'm determined to stay here, yet determined to get the hell out and the hell away from this place, that sometimes seems so foreign, so alien to me. And if I don't leave, they still are....so where to go from here, which path holds my destiny. Eghh screw it...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELLISSA!!! =D

Scary things about getting older:
*college
*voting
*marriage
*having kids, raising kids, not being a kid too
*fear grows as you realize your mortality
*wrinkles, sagging, spider veins, strach marks
*taxes and other various paperwork
*deceased parents
*Losing childhood memmories, Alzheimer
*(I'm sure we'll think of more)

"When you're young, you have moments that it seems you're living in some place magical, like Atlantas must've been. But when you grow, your heart tears in two."
I am currently Scattered
I am listening to "Mommy, WOW, I'm a big kid now!"