Guilt
07/27/2003 02:41 a.m.
At first, I felt really bad about what I said to Marcos' father. Then I got over it, because what I said is true and it's how I feel. I had a dream last night that I was with marcos and caroline, or as I like to call her, his whore. And usually when i dream about her, I am beating the shit out of her and she is unconscience, it's relatively fun. But in this dream, she knew karate and kept flipping me over her shoulder and stuff. It was weird. Then I went back to sleep and continued this dream. I didn't want to. I don't want to think about her, I don't want to think about Marcos. It's like Shane said to me today, you have to love someone before you can hate them. True. Marcos is the only person I can say that I hate without doubting it. I don't like it, but it's true. I wish I wasn't allergic to cats because I really want a kitty. Which is funny, because normally I don't like cats. But I do like cats that are nice, not ones that ignore you and then scratch the shit out of you for no reason. Like Dan's stupid cat Sparkle. Yeah, anyway, I have to go find some food.
I am currently Bleh
I am listening to Batman in the background